It's over. Well, almost. My 3rd beta on Wednesday came back at a 5. I am going to miscarry. I am pretty numb. And very sad. When they called I could tell right away that it was bad news, I actually held it together while I was on the phone with the nurse this time. But when I hung up I cried, texted my husband and then took a nap. I had to go to work after too. I really didn't want to go. But I can't really afford to not! So I called my sister-in-law and mom on my way to work. BAD IDEA. I was a crying mess to both of them and had a little sob fest in my car before I went into work. I am sure my eyes were all puffy and red when I went in too. I lucked out a little I only had to cashier for a bit, and then I got to go hang out at the service desk where I didn't have to deal with as many people. It was good to keep busy an be at work in the end. But once I got home to my husband I cried more.
I have stopped my progesterone so I should get my period, but if I don't I will have to go in next week for another blood draw to see what is going on. The good news is I can get pregnant. My body is capable. And it can happen again. And it will. I just don't know when!
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